I'm Moving

Well this is it.  I am moving from Sunny Valley OR to Culp Creek OR.  I just got back from spending 3 weeks with my daughter and grand children and had a wonderful time.  Now I am back in Sunny Valley to pack everything and go.  I guess this is just one more chapter in my life closed.  How many chapters does one get in a life time?  I know I will have one more after this one, but I am looking forwards to it and am preparing for it. That part of my life will occur when I find my property and put my own custom built house on it.

I did it this time

I think I have done it this time.  A Friend and I took the grandkids to a movie.  The grandkids and I went to one movie, while Friend went to another which got out 20 mins after mine.  After the movie got out, the grandkids and I went to the car and since it was in the sun, we moved to the shade. We waited and watched for Friend to get out, but did not see Friend.  So we sat in the car till 9pm waiting for Friend to come out.  At 9pm we left after a text that we were leaving, but I would be back for Friend after the movie got out.  I brought the kids home so they could spend the night with a relative and went back.  When I talked to Friend the next morning Friend said I passed Friend the next morning, Friend said I passed Friend on the freeway.  I honestly did not see Friend or I would have stopped.  Now Friend is avoiding me, and I don't know what to do!

My Search for a Home with Land

As I continue my search for property, I have searched in Washington County and found three that might work.  Columbia County had nothing.  There were a couple in Newberg I may go look at, I used to live in that town and liked it very much.  I get to go Thursday June 11 to see a few properties. 

I found out VA will approve a loan for bare property as long as the person buys a manufactured home to put on the land and they will even hook up everything, dig a well and put in septic and a drive way.  Another option opens for me.

As my home search continues, I have an appointment to go see a place that is in Williamina, OR.  It looks good, house may need some fixing up, but got to see what kind of condition it is in.

Just another day

Ever since I had said I was moving July 1st, both Jack and Dad have been pretty nice to me.  I know it won't last, but looking on line at places for rent with 3-4 bedrooms 2 bath and a large spacious living room, kitchen and den with a garage that locks is hard to find for a reasonable price.  And one with pets???? Whoo Whee you pay $25.00 - $35.00 for each pet each month.  I have been thru the ads on the computer and all I have found is $1150 and up.  With one guy only able to pay $300 per month, another girl paying $400 per month and I can only afford $600 per month, that gives us a ceiling of $1300 including all the pet rents.

Since I don't see us all three finding a place, my back up plan is to move up with my mom. It does not matter to me where I move, it will be away from here.  Even though the men here are being nice, I know it won't last.  I have put up with my dad yelling because my outside light came on in the night while he was out walking.  Instead of just telling me it was on, he started yelling and throwing a fit. I very calmly got dressed and went up to turn the light off and when I got back down to the house my Dad continued to yell and throw a fit for another 20 or so minutes.

Another instance was when I had 2 low wattage bulbs on in my room and was laying down.  My Dad seen both lights on threw a fit cause he thinks I need one light even though it don't light up the whole room, which was why I had both lights on, so I could see.

At each and other instances like these, my dad told me maybe I did not belong down here, and this last instance where he sided with my brother on an issue of my friend not being allowed on the property, it broke the camels back, I'm leaving.

I Just Don't Know

I used to wonder why my life is in the condition its in.  I went from  City living to Country Living, which is one grocery store day each month, which is usually ALL Shopping is done on this one day a month.  I'm not able to go back to my TriMet job and work down here (Josephine County) really sucks.  Now I have signed my death sentence to stay here cause I need a place with a barn/stall/running yard and pasture. I have just bought a horse, well a couple of months ago, and he is the sweetest thing.  He is calm, eager to please, and has a beautiful gait.

I am sooo looking forwards to working with him.

Now Dad tells me that I don't belong here, that I should not have moved in.  He waits till AFTER I buy a horse to tell me this.  I don't know if he wants me to stay or to leave.  We rarely have a conversation cause they always turn into arguments and Dad yelling and kicking things.

Leaving July 1st

Well its been a while since I have wrote on here.  Good News, I am moving to Lebanon OR with a couple of friends so I can look for a place to buy.  My friend Anthony has agreed to look after my horse Toc till I find a place where I can have him.  I will miss all my family and friends but will not miss the chaos and stress of where I am living now.  I can no longer take the argueing, and being told I don't belong here, I don't do anything, I am dispensible.  I don't really like it down here, so I am leaving July 1st.

Winter Wonderland

We got snow.  It stuck and now the whole place looks white.  My Pug puppies (they are almost 10 months old) didn't like the snow at first but now they play in it and go out to go pottie in it. That is when they are let out in the yard.

We also got a plugged toilet.  Should be unplugged tomorrow.

Un-Plugged Toilet

Well we got the toilet sorta unplugged.  All they can find is one tampon that had been flushed down so I am considered the guilty one.  I have not used a tampon for over 6 years and certainly not since I have been down here.  I told Dad that I do not use tampons and he says "I don't know of anyone else" meaning he does not believe me.  Oh well, just one more reason to move ASAP.

Rants

Now since this is my rant site, let me tell you the problems here.  I can't clean until everyone gets up at noon or later.  I get up at 6am and thats when I like to do all my stuff.  I wish they would flush the toilet, I wish Jack would pay his share of the toilet.  I wish I didn't have to live so far from town but I don't have the resources to move and can't as long as I have the pets.  My pugs and Lily are the ones that keep me going here.  I know lots of I wish, Dad told me one day that maybe I didn't belong here.  Well where do I belong? Thats the question.  I live on less than a thousand per month, rent is expensive and would not leave me much to live on.  At least here all I pay is electric (Jack don't) and part of the phone bill that gives me DSL.  I'm unhappy here but no where else to go.  I had to move to here cause that was the only place left I could go, so I have to find a way to be happy.  I have my brother but I can't spend all my time with him, and being with him makes me happy, but there is alot of loneliness down here.

At least I have an indoor bathroom which is more than my brother has.  He has to use an outhouse cause he don't have a indoor bathroom or running hot water.  I bought him an in-line water heater so when he puts that together with his water he will have hot water too.  He is working on his indoor bathroom, and will have it done this summer.

Well thats all for this ranting.  Stay tuned, more to come.

The Holiday Blah

Well, Christmas is almost here.  I should be used to having Christmas alone but I still miss my family (alive and passed on).  I have my puppies to keep me company this year, maybe it will snow and I will get to see a white christmas.  Don't get the wrong impression, I do not like the snow when I have to go out in it but for a holiday it would be nice to have.  I have already celebrated Christmas with my daughter, her husband and 3 grandkids.  We had a wonderful time, then went up and seen my Mom and brother for a bit.  

I live with my Dad and husband Jack for those of you who do not know.  Neither of these men celebrate Christmas so I am limited as to what I can do as far as decorating the house and surroundings, not that it would matter much no one would see them.  My older brother decorated a tree in his back yard.  It is seen by him when he goes to the outhouse.  He uses it for his light.  I got to put up one string of lights and one 2ft tree behind the TV cause there is no other place to set it, and the presents that have been given to us are sitting on the printer except Jacks cause he could not wait.  Dads girlfriend gave Dad a bunch of candy which he eats and don't gain an ounce for Christmas so I guess while I am enjoying my box of candy they will not have any.  We all three got a box of Chocolate covered cherries which of course Jack don't eat so I guess Dad and I will eat them.  He should be out of candy by then.

I must try to stay content and patient.  Pretty soon my vacation from here comes and I go to Beaverton OR for a week in May.  I should be glad cause Jack said he would watch the pups while I was gone.  I just have to take Lily.

My little Pugs

Shasta 6 months old

Shasta 6 months old

Blu 6 months old

Blu 6 months old

Grandkids riding Horses

My grandkids riding the horse.

Baptism Luci May 14, 2011 & Jack May 5, 2011

Alot has happened since I last got on the blog. I've been going to Church with my brother Warren Jr, watching shows he recommends, and trying to loose weight. Its very hard cause everyone down here wants to see instant results and weight loss isn't achieved and kept off using those weight loss pills. It all has to do with diet,and I am loosing about a pound per week.  I have gotten Baptized as well as my husband.  I am so proud of him.

Well, I have been down in Sunny Valley OR for over a year now.  I am not as stressed as I was when driving the bus, but one still has to walk over eggshells.  I am getting a 2nd puppy to go with my first puppy and I am afraid to tell my dad cause I don't know how he will react.  I think he is getting dementia or allzeimers, not to bad though.  Any one have any suggestions on how to approach the subject?  My husband thinks I am paying too much for the dog, but it is a Pug and its only 1/2 the price they want in the big city with papers.  He won't listen to reason that the dog will be at my brothers place not down in the house in which I live, so I don't see a problem.  I paid half for the sewer to get pumped, and am saving for the house to be reroofed this summer which I have to pay half. I feel I should be able to spend my money as I wish or save as I wish without them telling me what I can and can not do.  As soon as Dad finds out he goes into the lecture that I should adopt kids instead of pets cause they cost as much. Then follows the lecture of how I need another dog like I need a hole in my head and says things that make me feel guilty, then what ever else he has to say.

Shishka and Shasta

Here is a couple of pics of Shishka (the big one) and Shasta (the puppy) sleeping together. Shishka for the most part tolorates Shasta, but my Lab/Sharpei won't.

Shasta 11 weeks old

This is Shasta at 11 weeks of age. She still can't get on the couch yet, and the video is her chasing the bell on her collar.

Shasta says Good Morning Shishka

This is Shasta 9 weeks old trying to say good morning to Shishka. I have Shishka's door closed cause she is still getting used to Shasta.

Shasta

This is Shasta, she is now 8 weeks old and getting into everything. Here is a picture of her helping me in the trailer.

Shasta

I just got me a new puppy. She is a Pug and about 6 weeks old now. I will get to pick her up when she is 8 weeks old or on the 1st.

Sissy

My Little Sissy and her boyfriend Chin.