Rants

Now since this is my rant site, let me tell you the problems here.  I can't clean until everyone gets up at noon or later.  I get up at 6am and thats when I like to do all my stuff.  I wish they would flush the toilet, I wish Jack would pay his share of the toilet.  I wish I didn't have to live so far from town but I don't have the resources to move and can't as long as I have the pets.  My pugs and Lily are the ones that keep me going here.  I know lots of I wish, Dad told me one day that maybe I didn't belong here.  Well where do I belong? Thats the question.  I live on less than a thousand per month, rent is expensive and would not leave me much to live on.  At least here all I pay is electric (Jack don't) and part of the phone bill that gives me DSL.  I'm unhappy here but no where else to go.  I had to move to here cause that was the only place left I could go, so I have to find a way to be happy.  I have my brother but I can't spend all my time with him, and being with him makes me happy, but there is alot of loneliness down here.

At least I have an indoor bathroom which is more than my brother has.  He has to use an outhouse cause he don't have a indoor bathroom or running hot water.  I bought him an in-line water heater so when he puts that together with his water he will have hot water too.  He is working on his indoor bathroom, and will have it done this summer.

Well thats all for this ranting.  Stay tuned, more to come.

The Holiday Blah

Well, Christmas is almost here.  I should be used to having Christmas alone but I still miss my family (alive and passed on).  I have my puppies to keep me company this year, maybe it will snow and I will get to see a white christmas.  Don't get the wrong impression, I do not like the snow when I have to go out in it but for a holiday it would be nice to have.  I have already celebrated Christmas with my daughter, her husband and 3 grandkids.  We had a wonderful time, then went up and seen my Mom and brother for a bit.  

I live with my Dad and husband Jack for those of you who do not know.  Neither of these men celebrate Christmas so I am limited as to what I can do as far as decorating the house and surroundings, not that it would matter much no one would see them.  My older brother decorated a tree in his back yard.  It is seen by him when he goes to the outhouse.  He uses it for his light.  I got to put up one string of lights and one 2ft tree behind the TV cause there is no other place to set it, and the presents that have been given to us are sitting on the printer except Jacks cause he could not wait.  Dads girlfriend gave Dad a bunch of candy which he eats and don't gain an ounce for Christmas so I guess while I am enjoying my box of candy they will not have any.  We all three got a box of Chocolate covered cherries which of course Jack don't eat so I guess Dad and I will eat them.  He should be out of candy by then.

I must try to stay content and patient.  Pretty soon my vacation from here comes and I go to Beaverton OR for a week in May.  I should be glad cause Jack said he would watch the pups while I was gone.  I just have to take Lily.